darkwor said

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I decided to stop for a little while, probably a month or so, to see how it goes. I began to really hate feeling burned out at night, or in mid-day when I would smoke/vape during the day. I began to feel self-conscious about it - red eyes, slow speech, that was getting to me. I'm not the type of person to worry about that stuff, so something was wrong. I usually like reading before I hit the sack, and I couldn't even bring myself to do that because I just felt like a pile of mud. I was also noticing it was affecting my attention span with everything - everything from drum exercises to watching TV/reading, even listening to music. Socially, I was a pretty heavy smoker. I could sit there and hit the vape 15 times then smoke a blunt. I started to be constantly late for work in the morning. It's different for everybody of course, but it (the burnout feeling mostly) was beginning to affect my general mindset and attitude.

So I quit, and all those problems went away. My mind is clear, I'm more energetic, I can focus on one thing much easier, I've been waking up much earlier with time to do shit before work, etc. It's definitely not the last time I'll smoke, but I'm glad I stopped for a while.

Fuck I'm writing a lot today.